Ralph Essen
Ralph Essen
I was 18 when I joined the Navy. I drew an unlucky number, got pushed through the rapid learning chambers to learn magic as quickly as possible and get my degree in mechanical engineering. I got stuck in the Ganges, going up and down that river while we tried to save India from the Chi Coms.
We pulled it off, but while we were distracted Vietnam was lost, Cambodia was lost and if the dice had landed a different way Thailand would have been lost. That was what it was like fighting Ivan. No matter what you did you didn't really win, you just managed to keep your head above water.
Ivan didn't believe in letting you have a clear win.
"Should have given us some shore leave."
Goldstein, we had met on and off over the years, the Navy kept moving us around. There were too few of us, and the navy had to compete with the rest of the military for every mage they could get. I remember those first 4 years, me and a small ship going up the Ganges.
That lasted until Chang got a lucky shot on our ship. We fought our way to shore, we fought our way back to allied lines and when the fighting was over I was the only one left.
"This was important and you know some idiot jarhead would have ruined everything."
Goldstein nodded at my comment, it was standard navy protocol, when all else fails blame the marines. We watched as flashes of light came from the other boats.
"Going home."
He looked at me.
"Really, want to leave all this?"
I was 18 when I joined the navy, I was 38 now. I remembered the first time I took some leave, I remembered returning home to Chicago, and I remembered one thing from that vacation.
The world moved on without me, my friends moved on without me, the old neighborhood had changed, I had changed and I didn't belong there anymore. That was the last vacation I took, the last time I returned to Chicago. I wandered from post to post, from boat to boat.
I did what was asked of me, life became a collection of people wandering in and out of my life. They say the military gives you direction, maybe that's true for some people. Not for me. I had a plan, I had direction and then those plans shattered like glass on a small patrol boat in a river.
There were sign up bonuses and I put them into savings. I got CDs, I lived cheaply and simply. Occasionally I had company but nothing came of it. I drifted in and out of other people's lives and they drifted in and out of mine.
"Yeah, I did my duty, Uncle Sam can find someone else."
Goldstine nodded.
"What then?"
I thought about it.
"I want to find out the truth, find out where we all went wrong."
I checked my watch.
"Show time."
We gathered into our circle and chanted. Our weight was prime, it was midnight and the leylines were powered and ready to go. Our hands went down and the world blurred. With that done we went out and looked outside, 2 moons glowed in the distance as we floated towards San Diego.
"Be it ever so humble."
We were all silent as we headed into port. I gathered the few things I owned and put them into my rucksack, I looked around. I didn't bother decorating my room. I turned off the lights one last time and slept. When I woke up I joined a line of men and went to administration.
I was given the honor of being told I would recieve checks in the mail until my unused vacation time ran out, and was given a handshake. With that done I left. I didn't have a direction to go in, not really, my old life was over and I could do anything now.
So what did I want to do? I wanted to find out where it all went wrong, that one moment that caused our downfall. That mistake that caused the end of an entire world, 4 years after the end and no one knows why the russians went crazy. No one knows why everything ended.
I wandered the city and froze.
"Aram's used books."
The bell tinkled as I went in, and older man looked at me in annoyance.
"I don't sell porn."
I frowned.
"I'm not here for that."
He shrugged.
"What are you here for?"
"History, I want history books, journals, biographies, the past, I want to know where it all went, well..."
"Wrong."
The man nodded at me and motioned with his hand.
"You're not the only one with questions. When the end came I sold out of everything."
I followed him into the stacks.
"Really?"
"Yeah, some people wanted to escape, some people wanted to know why, and some people wanted new skills for a new world, it was a good time."
"And now?"
"And now people want science fiction, they want cowboys, they want to pretend that nothing changed, it doesn't work but it makes them feel better."
He pulled a book out and blew on it, I coughed as the dust hit me in the face.
"Louis Le Pen, part of the orginal 1337."
I blinked.
"Compass' first class."
I remembered the mural, the room of statues dedicated to each student, the first class, the first magi, I had to have it.
"Do you take credit?"
The old man frowned.
"Cash then."
I had to have this book, he smiled and stacked on other books, I bought them all.
"Here."
He put them into a cloth bag.
"Hope you find what you're looking for."
I left the book store smiling. I had over 20 years of savings, more then enough money to buy a boat, more then enough money to buy supplies. I decided I needed to travel. I needed to read and wander. I got a hotel room and started reading.
I was 18 when I joined the Navy. I drew an unlucky number, got pushed through the rapid learning chambers to learn magic as quickly as possible and get my degree in mechanical engineering. I got stuck in the Ganges, going up and down that river while we tried to save India from the Chi Coms.
We pulled it off, but while we were distracted Vietnam was lost, Cambodia was lost and if the dice had landed a different way Thailand would have been lost. That was what it was like fighting Ivan. No matter what you did you didn't really win, you just managed to keep your head above water.
Ivan didn't believe in letting you have a clear win.
"Should have given us some shore leave."
Goldstein, we had met on and off over the years, the Navy kept moving us around. There were too few of us, and the navy had to compete with the rest of the military for every mage they could get. I remember those first 4 years, me and a small ship going up the Ganges.
That lasted until Chang got a lucky shot on our ship. We fought our way to shore, we fought our way back to allied lines and when the fighting was over I was the only one left.
"This was important and you know some idiot jarhead would have ruined everything."
Goldstein nodded at my comment, it was standard navy protocol, when all else fails blame the marines. We watched as flashes of light came from the other boats.
"Going home."
He looked at me.
"Really, want to leave all this?"
I was 18 when I joined the navy, I was 38 now. I remembered the first time I took some leave, I remembered returning home to Chicago, and I remembered one thing from that vacation.
The world moved on without me, my friends moved on without me, the old neighborhood had changed, I had changed and I didn't belong there anymore. That was the last vacation I took, the last time I returned to Chicago. I wandered from post to post, from boat to boat.
I did what was asked of me, life became a collection of people wandering in and out of my life. They say the military gives you direction, maybe that's true for some people. Not for me. I had a plan, I had direction and then those plans shattered like glass on a small patrol boat in a river.
There were sign up bonuses and I put them into savings. I got CDs, I lived cheaply and simply. Occasionally I had company but nothing came of it. I drifted in and out of other people's lives and they drifted in and out of mine.
"Yeah, I did my duty, Uncle Sam can find someone else."
Goldstine nodded.
"What then?"
I thought about it.
"I want to find out the truth, find out where we all went wrong."
I checked my watch.
"Show time."
We gathered into our circle and chanted. Our weight was prime, it was midnight and the leylines were powered and ready to go. Our hands went down and the world blurred. With that done we went out and looked outside, 2 moons glowed in the distance as we floated towards San Diego.
"Be it ever so humble."
We were all silent as we headed into port. I gathered the few things I owned and put them into my rucksack, I looked around. I didn't bother decorating my room. I turned off the lights one last time and slept. When I woke up I joined a line of men and went to administration.
I was given the honor of being told I would recieve checks in the mail until my unused vacation time ran out, and was given a handshake. With that done I left. I didn't have a direction to go in, not really, my old life was over and I could do anything now.
So what did I want to do? I wanted to find out where it all went wrong, that one moment that caused our downfall. That mistake that caused the end of an entire world, 4 years after the end and no one knows why the russians went crazy. No one knows why everything ended.
I wandered the city and froze.
"Aram's used books."
The bell tinkled as I went in, and older man looked at me in annoyance.
"I don't sell porn."
I frowned.
"I'm not here for that."
He shrugged.
"What are you here for?"
"History, I want history books, journals, biographies, the past, I want to know where it all went, well..."
"Wrong."
The man nodded at me and motioned with his hand.
"You're not the only one with questions. When the end came I sold out of everything."
I followed him into the stacks.
"Really?"
"Yeah, some people wanted to escape, some people wanted to know why, and some people wanted new skills for a new world, it was a good time."
"And now?"
"And now people want science fiction, they want cowboys, they want to pretend that nothing changed, it doesn't work but it makes them feel better."
He pulled a book out and blew on it, I coughed as the dust hit me in the face.
"Louis Le Pen, part of the orginal 1337."
I blinked.
"Compass' first class."
I remembered the mural, the room of statues dedicated to each student, the first class, the first magi, I had to have it.
"Do you take credit?"
The old man frowned.
"Cash then."
I had to have this book, he smiled and stacked on other books, I bought them all.
"Here."
He put them into a cloth bag.
"Hope you find what you're looking for."
I left the book store smiling. I had over 20 years of savings, more then enough money to buy a boat, more then enough money to buy supplies. I decided I needed to travel. I needed to read and wander. I got a hotel room and started reading.